Nursing Student Life

As I facing my laptop, asking the soul inside me “What are you want to write?” past few days as I am preparing hardly for my exam practicing calculations, ABG’s respiratory, and Glasgow Coma Scale other Nursing interventions. I got the result. and I just destroy the blocks supposedly to be build. My score is passed though I want everything on it’s excellent condition. Way back reading exam questionnaire (when taking the examination) It’s not what I reviewed though I read the questions carefully. Who would not dream RN as an extension of your name? I’d love to finish it with flying colors but then again it’s hard to become an excellent student when all you have possessed is hard work and average IQ and weak mathematics solving skills (practicing on that part, don’t worry).

In my subjects that not using a situational questions which I am excelling. All this life time I just have hard work along with me. The question is how to solve a situational questions with right answers? I definitely do everything just to have it suddenly and happily through winnings and losings. Nursing School? mixed of Happiness and Losings but you must always win even losing, passing and excellence. When you lose, make ways to things that could turn it better. Change the way you look yourself, your habits and your environment. Make your habits accordingly that leads you to winnings in between passing or excellence. Think of it, I said it in losing, passing, and excellence. Remove the losing part, now you just left with two Passing and Excellence. If you can do it excellently, Passed it. okay? but do everything with excellence.

In God’s name all things are possible. Do your best even if your not the best and you are like just the rest. God is not blind. He sees your hard work. You may cry in this path you took. It’s been delayed yes self for a decade. This is your time and your life’s break through. Continue what are you doing. God’s Love you Faye and see every hard work. Years from now, you just laugh and smile in front of this laptop while reading this “oh I actually made it! and that’s a Yay!!!

Then for now… much love From Faye dated April 21, 2023- Student Nurse

Unsure perhaps Sure

Drowned, Dumped, Unsure of myself and Toxicity. Those things are embarked within me. Decisions and Plans yesterday’s right act. As I Imagined the things about to happen turns now to destroy the foundation I had built. Unsure of who I become. My Goals and Plans now shattered like a broken glass on the floor waiting for someone to fix me. Not a good thought. I cried in desperately needing God’s Word. I was literally crying quietly yesterday night. A situation triggers all the emotions and heart aches to blow up. All the aura and vibes are unseen but feel.

I received a love that’s willing to do anything and I didn’t deserve it. I hurt everyone who surrounds me. I’d Love to distance myself with everyone and leave them unharmed.

I Love you and Good bye for now. Our Love will always be something I would remember forever. Tight hugs, small and passionate kisses. That would be the Last. I’ll treasure it forever. Because Today might be the day that ends the pain I caused. The Time we spent together is meaningful. I’ll definitely miss it every second of my life. Thank you and I love you for the last time. I need you to heal the wounds I give. I had a life that’s not promising enough.

You are my Too Good To be True and The one that got away.

A Boomer

Srsly, I’m not fit into the herd of Gen Z. Lol xD slightly  millennial but more likely belong to Boomers II or below 😮‍💨😪
I’m kind of pushed toward gadgets due to basic needs of this era, which only rely on phones, etc. for searching and other beneficial purposes. Like hey yah!  I’m kind of a person who is living in 1903 and below. Nah!  I used gadgets just because I’m far from everyone close to my heart.

So yeah, I’m basically using my phone. Hey, I just want books, books and books and walking to greenery places. Let me be.

A person full stack of books oh yeah that’s none other than me. I am just pushed into using everything I just maybe didn’t like. Want to release a half sack of rant.

You know? If I could just drop a mail to the post office to convey a message to my loved ones and in every one I am working with. Haisk Could I?

Mood Changes

Every little pieces shattered once whole. Wholeness of Romance I never imagined that would happen and it’s happening now. Mine would love to give every bits of me. Could I have some left for myself? than being broke and left with none at all. My feels shivers in my wholeness. My hands holding yours is the rest I want for a lifetime. Your Lips whispering every day I Love you is the kind of richest thing I’d wanna here everytime I am burned out.

Unsaid Thoughts

Need to spill it.. it’s well uh kinda zigzag feels. Thoughts and Learnings being unsaid are the once need to be said. Why some other niggas in in this socio economic society never ever did share the secret recipe or maybe the basic word would be their knowledge.

The Richest Man living. A Man loaded with knowledge and benefits surroundings and nature. Actually I emptied my Mind for almost months. Literally emptied by not working on my Vlog and my books. So today and the rest of the days I would acquire knowledge from knowledgeable sources with my own possession. Thoughts is in here a few days ago then now gone. Re-charging my mind today. Experiencing author mental block today.

Random

Feeling okay might be not okay all the time. How do we access every situation in day to day activities? Actually this post may be a random of my shenanigans.

I am actually okay though I doubt myself of being okay. I am a little bit of doubtful. I wanna deepen my passion in writing the rithym of my heart.

I Love how Life gives me thrilling zigzags across the slushing waves of life vibrant. Positive vibes wave wave wave and let me fall within your energy.

A life filled with positivity even negative vibes would be shame of going near me. When we are in positive state waves our mind attract each every molecule waves of earth 💓

When Positivity in human kind is normal the world would be in greater place and Love always bounce back 💓

Invented, Featured and Revolved 360°

My Own perception of Changing from ancient time up to now hmm…
(Don’t know but if you care read it and if you’re not okay just scroll down)
Social media and Technology already turned our live upside down, evolved us, turned us in a positive manner, revolved us 360° since it’s been invented, featured and used. Year by year it’s drastically changing on how do we step out in life instead of stepping out in our faith in our relationship with GOD.
Instead reading bible, books and anything before social media.
We made it way too far beyond imaginations of our ancient ancestors. We ruined everything. They first invented technology to lessen the hardens of messaging our love ones from mailing to electronic generated mails. We made it way so far! We made it so far that we over ruin it.

I wanna go back in time where we set a meeting and not cancelling it because we are obliged to make it there due to no cellphones to cancel everything. No social media.
Social media had changed our standards of living.

If I would choose I would live my life without using any social media

Disclaimer;
(If I am using it right now, it’s just because of my Loved ones feel they are loved if their post being like and chatting them from time to time. I am already sick of this generation)

A Cup of relaxation added

Mangostana Graviola Coffee and My Bible 💓

Started with free taste to addiction of drinking and attached myself into it in every page of my chapter. So here while reading I am drinking a cup of mangostana Graviola coffee. It’s more much relaxation while reading the Teachings of the Lord💓 and sip coffee in every word that embark personally 💓

Thousands of positive feelings have just summoning from universe to my heart and mind.

I Love the feels it gives 💓

Immersing thru depts of Sea

At least I did really know to figure things out with the help of Environment energy. Things shall to pass easy or hard. The wow extravagant feeling immersing myself into the depts of the sea. I had face lots of emotional breakdowns, I am really facing it.

My feet on the sand ground absorbing every good energy I could get. I would get it as long as I needed and as long as the sand giving me.

Little baby waves crashing each other. I think the waves are with me while I sing a song of worship to GOD. Enjoyed it while the air and the waves are with me. Wooooh! This is the refreshment my body and mind needeed. If I could live near the beach I’ll do it in instant. If I had the resources but no thats why I am pushing this hard. Maybe today there’s no result hmm Little by little is better than nothing.

(Still for edit)

PUZZLING AND REKINDLING

This past few weeks I often ask myself. Am I really this? Are you gone together with your snatched cellphone? The answer to myself is I write and everything in my notes and my music my photos. A day before that I got so sick. Then everything is tearing apart myself is tearing apart. Really don’t have any idea why it happened. Now I know why. My Fire blown up by strong wind. I’ve drowned in myself ambitious thoughts and plans. What’s the purpose of having everything when I didn’t ask God from those things?